Separation Anxiety

One week since we left Estonia. Wow. Ever feel like time takes so long but in the same instant stands still? Some mornings I wake up expecting to hear the birds outside the window of the 5th floor on Kopli in Tallinn. Or at night when I actually HAVE to turn on the light to see. There is so much that I miss in Estonia. But God is teaching me not to mourn or be sullen but instead to remember Estonia joyfully. To recongnize the work that He did this summer and will continue to do there. As we continue to debrief and relive the past 2 months, I am realizing just how much God used us this summer. I know that we have all grown and have become closer to who it is that God wants us to be...who it is that He MADE us to be. We are finding His will, His purpose for our lives. We are learning about total submission and becoming holy. We want more than anything to be like Christ. This is the end of this adventure...but God is not done with us! He has so much more planned for our lives in the states (and Canada!). I think I can speak for everyone when I say...we can't wait to see what is next!
Thank you for your prayers and encouragement. We appreciated and looked forward to them more than you will ever know! =)
Blessings!

why do all good things come to an end?

well, its my last blog here, the summer is winding down and we're all gathered together again as we were just 6 weeks ago. seems things have gone so fast, but somehow so slow. i just cant wrap my mind around it all, at times.
i've been in and out of shock. there are just moments when i feel like i never left. so i whip out the digital camera and flip thru some pics to remind myself of where i went and what i did. all it seems i have, are some memories and random souvenirs. and i wonder if thats enough...
this summer has been a growth experience for me (and those around me) in so many ways. and this week being together again has been soothing to my spirit. it feels like family. like home. its indescribable how much i feel like a part of this group. we are sisters. (and one brother, and one uncle, lol). and its good. there is so much to say about that..
but anyways, it makes me think of a song. although secular, i think it somehow expresses what i'm feeling right now. its called "all good things" by nelly furtado. here's the lyrics:

Honestly what will become of me
Don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming

[Chorus]
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
Come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets in and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
[ All Good Things lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]
Come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
Come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die

so while i do admit that this week i am in a bit of a daze, i recognize that i need to embrace the moments that i have. God is good. He worked this summer. in estonia, in my teammates, and in me. time is irrelevant and relative in this case. well in reality any case in which God is involved. lol. i cant allow myself to daydream and let things pass by. i need to do more than carpe diem and embrace the moment. i need to surrender and allow God to work.

pray for both teams this week as we chew over and process our experiences. Pray for continued growth, guidance, and grace/mercy. etc.

jumal onistagu teid